Hand hold or gentle advice needed.

[feathermucker]

This might seem ridoculous to some but its real to me.

I do suffer from anxiety a lot. Am on medication and awaiting CBT.

I analyse friendships and am always ok social media seeming to look for reasons why my low opinion of myself is justified.

Today, for example, my friend has said Merry Christmas but to other mates, it's been Merry Christmas beautiful or Merry Christmas lovely.

I'm not overly demonstrative or tactile and not the sort to say love you to many people whereas my group of friends are.

Maybe that's the reason, I don't know. We're not as close as we were and both suffer from anxiety. In the past, I have been a bit intense with her.

I know it seems ridiculous, just stressing me out a lot today when I need it least.... It's an intrusive thought.

Sorry if it's trivial compared to what some people are going through.

Gentile advice and to understand the situation is what I'm looking for plrase if anyone has time.

Hugs. This is easy for me to say, but I have been there so I sympathise - try not to think about it. Which I know is like saying "try to sprout wings and fly around the room", but any moment of not thinking about it that you can manage is a job well done. Distract yourself with interaction, music, complex quiz, distraction of your choice. It's ok if you fall back into thinking about it - don't feel bad, just pick up the distractions and try again. I know how bloody hard it is.

sorry you're feeling this way. Maybe your friend was just trying to mix things up a bit, rather than type out the same message again and again? That's the sort of thing I would do anyway.
I hope you don't have to wait too much longer for your CBT.

If you’re not overly demonstrative then you’re unlikely to get a gushing message from your friend because she probably thinks you won’t like it.
I have one friend who I would just say ‘Merry Christmas’ she is my bestest of best friends but hates FB expressions like hun, lovely etc.
To others it might look like we’re not close but you adjust your message to your audience

Could the thought actually mean it saddens you not to be as close to her as others seem to be? Would you like to demonstrate your feelings more than you do? Would you like to have a closer friendship with someone? Try to think why the thought is there

Maybe she does feel it inappropriate to be overly demonstrative with you ... as you're not like that her? ??

Thank you for the replies everyone.

It's a symptom of my bigger anxiety, rather than a specific issue in itself. I seem to tumble from one obsessive thought to another at the moment.

I think she is probably like that because im not overly demonstrative with people. It just seems to come easier to her to be like that with other people.

I could analyse it forever to be honest.

Christmas has been ling day emotion wise and I hope this time next year I'm in a better place both physically and mentally.

Have you thought about how you'll get to that place ? 💕💕