Can anyone give me some hope that I've done the right thing? **Trigger warning added by MNHQ**

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This evening my son tried to hang himself. I managed to get the noose from round his neck before he lost consciousness. The ambulance would have taken two hours to get to us and he refused to go to hospital with me in the car and left the house. I called the police who found him and organised an assessment. It was explained to him that he could go to hospital voluntarily or another team would come to see him with the power to section him if necessary. He went voluntarily but he hates me and wouldn't speak to me as he was leaving. I have a feeling that I've made things so much worse and I worry about him feeling alone and scared in hospital.

Hi Stealth. I've been to see him and take him some clothes and magazines and stuff. He hates it in there and says it's making things worse. He seems to be minimising what he did and focusing on things that I do which annoy him. He says he's happier when he avoids me which was really hard to hear. I'm just hoping that he doesn't convince the psychiatrists that he would be fine if I just leave him alone. I'm far from perfect but I think his problems are running deeper than an annoying mother.
Thank you for asking. It's very kind of you to think of us

I can’t begin to imagine, OP. Sending you and every hope that your son gets good care, and that you have support around you.

I’m so sorry, I worded that badly - I meant that I can’t begin to imagine what you are going through. I totally think that you did the right thing.

OP that is so upsetting for you are. You absolutely did the right thing. He is lashing out and you are probably the closest person that he knows he can lash out at and you will still love him.

Do you mind me asking you how old your son is?

My father tried to commit suicide a few times. One of which I found him at home in bed and he had taken pills and alcohol. Had to call an ambulance and he was sectioned for a while. It was heartbreaking to see him in there but it had to be done.

We don't ever talk about it which is probably a bit strange. He hasn't done anything like that since. It's 16 years ago now but will never forget it as long as I live.

No real words of wisdom for you OP other than my heart goes out to you at this time. You are doing your best

He's projecting his stuff onto you and through you because you are the person he loves the most - the person he knows at a deep level, will continue to love him despite and because 💕💕

So difficult for you. All you can do is love him, as you are doing brilliantly xx

Hi sorry I missed your reply. Glad you have seen him and hope he starts to calm and understand why you had to do what you did

Just saw your thread. Hope you got through today ok.

Still thinking about you and your ds x