Three years ago my DD took an overdose but survived. She self-harmed several times and took another overdose a few months later. Even though it's been over two years since any self-harming, I still panic. She had an argument with DH earlier, then went in the shower. I was thinking "what if she's cutting herself in there" whilst she was in the shower. Later in the evening DH went in her room to see if he could sort it out. I was waiting to hear him scream because I thought he'd find her dead. This is no life. I know it's awful to say, but I wish I'd never had kids. I'm not suicidal, but I often wish that I would die in my sleep. I'm on ADs, have tried different types and have had my dose increased twice, but I'm still unhappy and stressed a lot.