Anxiety back with a vengeance

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I've had anxiety on and off since 2005. Was doing better this last year and off meds. I have had two panic attacks in the last four days. I now think I have actually not been better this last year but rather numb which has deadened everything.

I have had a tough time these last few years. DS has ASD and mental health problems himself. I am his sole carer as for various valid reasons he won't see his dad. He has been unable to leave the house for the last five weeks which I don't think has helped my mental health much.

The electric cut out briefly several times tonight (not fuse box so presumably mini power cuts) but I am now panicking that there is something wrong with the electric. I worry all the time about leaks or something wrong with the house, that I will get in trouble with the housing association.

Please tell me I can come back from this again. I hate feeling like this. Am going to make a doctor's appointment tomorrow and hope I don't have to wait too long.

In my experience, anxiety never really goes (sorry) but for me it's a bit on and off. Sometimes I can be great for weeks, and then not great. Sometimes it's just a few days on, a few days off. And there never seems to be a reason it comes or it goes , it just does. I've stopped trying to fight it as much and just try to ride the storm, but it does depend on how resilient I'm feeling at the time.
Hope you'll feel better soon

Thanks. I think it's just blindsided me as I've not had it for a while. I hate that it stops you being able to rationalize things properly.