I feel miserable all the time, its like all the joy has been sucked out of me, I don't get excited about anything at all, I just feel dead inside. I smile but its fake, just a front for everyone around me, I don't look forward to anything, nothing seems to make me feel anything.
I used to feel plenty, but from all the rubbish that has happened to me in life I feel like it all changed me, and I no longer know who I am if that makes sense?
I could win the lottery tomorrow and I don't think even that would raise a genuine smile, I just want to go to bed, stay there and for everyone to leave me alone, I don't even care if I wake up.
I have a lovely Husband but I feel myself putting on a fake smile around him as well, and as soon as he goes to work and I am alone I break down and cry, I don't even know why anymore.
I need to go and see my doctor don't I?