There's no one to help is there?

[Thisdoesnotdefineyou]

I feel like I'm starting to drown and there's actually no one to help. I'm petrified to leave the house and I'm meant to get dc to school now that they are feeling better but I just can't. I can't leave the house empty. I can't get the bus. I can't afford taxis there and back twice a day. So many things/triggers have happened at the same time and I've lost control of everything.

There's no real help available though. My GP has already loaded me with medication that helps me at least leave my bedroom and function inside my home. The only options from there are the local IAPT team (who I've had two horrible experiences with already including a man who locked me in the room with him so that whole place is a trigger in itself now) and... oh that's it.

I just don't know what to do. I need to get dc to school. Is there anyone I haven't thought of? Do I ring school and confide in them? Do I report myself to social services?

I can function great inside the home and dc is happy and unaware there's an issue. It's just leaving the house.

I think you should confide in your school, and also try to take small steps toward leaving the house, for instance just opening the door and being outside for a while. My dad had this problem for a while (a couple of years) when I was about ten to fifteen years old. You have one person who can help, and that is you. You have to trust yourself to help yourself, not give in when it feels difficult. It has not always been like this, has it? It's possible to reverse the process in small steps but you must challenge yourself. If you can't just yet leave the house for long, maybe you could go out in the yard or in the street? If you can't go by bus maybe you could just go and watch the buses pass by? Don't give in.