I suffer with BPD
I've been going through a lot lately and I've been struggling to get out of bed,
I'm married with three kids 11,9&5
Really really struggling
My bed is my safe please, when I'm sleeping I don't have to deal with life. So I do the bare minimum
I get up n mon-fri send my kids to breakfast club my oldest walks them it's in the next street.
My wife leaves for work at 6:45 mom-fri
She comes home at 5:45
I go back to bed n I set my alarm to pick them up
Only because school will not allow my oldest to walk the 5 year old home.
Kids do their thing
I cook tea
I go back to bed
Sat sun
I might get out of bed for tea my wife does everything
She thinks I'm just lazy
She's doesn't see me having an illness
She's gonna leave me
I take loads of meds n few months ago changed them up do council n all the classes
I've no get up n go
No motivation no life
I hate where I live I have no friends I moved to live with my wife 1 hour n 20 mins away from my family
She doesn't want to move there
But I'm going insane
I can't drive
Seriously I hate my life
But I don't want to loose my wife
Sick of arguing