I know the techniques but I'm still anxious

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I've had about 40 CBT sessions, read every book, know the Linden method, know anxiety and panic disorder is irrational but still I wake every day anxious. I can't take meds. Any help?

I think you might accept the feeling to be a little bit like tinnitus, the awareness of sound in the ears or head which is not from an external source. The step that naturally follows is to do things anyway. Do you have a support network of friends and family? It is probably worse if you don't have a support network, but still not impossible to cope.

Do you go to sleep tense?

Why can't you take meds?

My advice is to read the books by Dr. Claire Weekes. These have helped me immensely.
The focus is not on getting rid of the anxiety but accepting it and once you accept it, it no longer becomes an issue and then it starts to abate.
Anxiety feeds more anxiety.
I can now 'see' my anxiety and the symptoms it creates, so I'm not fearful of it and the symptoms. I don't necessarily like it, but it's just there.
Once I had my first glimpse of normal thinking and feeling it soon snowballed.
I still get flashes of anxiety, but they last an hour any the max, whereas in the summer I thought I was going mad and I suffered depersonalisation.

An ssri landed me in HDU.

Oh no! Are there any safe alternatives at all?
Exercise does really help me.
Planning in advance.
I do succumb to obsessive checking and negative thought cycles too though.

I gulp air when I'm nervous it's become a compulsion