i cant stop thinking

[divastrop]

since i had my baby nearly 6 weeks ago my brain has been on overdrive.i thought i would feel better after suffering from AND,i do feel better in that im not 'down' where i feel theres no point in anything,but im going insane with the stupid,horrible thoughts going round my head.i am torturing myself by thinking about bad things ive read in the news,or about dp leaving me/having an affair,and constantly wondering what hes upto.

tbh i think i felt like this after having dd2 (16 mo)and after having ds2(3.8)as well.

why cant i control what goes on in my own head?why do i do this to myself,i mean,im wasting time and energy and upsetting myself by thinking about things i dont need to think about,and its also stopping me concentrating on the things i do need to think about.

last time i saw my gp about feeling this way she gave me ad's which made me feel worse,and she said that normally she would prescribe tranquilisers for that sort of thing but they arent a good idea when you have a small baby.

sorry if none of this makes sense i just had to get it off my chest.

Hi Diva,I think itis quite common in the early weeks to get "disordered thinking,like you cannot switch off.I think it is due to hrmones and sleep deprivation.Remember haviung relly crazy fearful thoughts about harm coming to both of mine.Hugs.

Oops,crap spelling,sorry!!!

I found that these irrational thoughts did dissipate as I got over those early weeks and the sleeping got better,however I only have 2 to deal with so heaven only knows what it is like with three.Probably a daft question but is there any way you can get half an hour just for yourself to do something relaxing,just to take the pressure ofdf a bit.I got a bit manic after having my second and just did not stop at all.Hopefully someone will be able to post some useful advice soon,hugs.

Have just re-read your OP and have now determined this must be number 5 !!!!WOW.

You are a VERY brave woman.I just could not cope!!!!

I seriously hope someone can give you some good pointers,but all I can say is that I think it is quite common to have these irrational thoughts in the early weeks.HTH.

thanks for taking the time to reply

yes,dd3 is baby no.5honestly,its no different to having 2 when it comes to stress!

i saw my gp today anyway and shes told me to carry on with the prozac(been on it since 12 weeks preg)and shes going to see if she can get me an appt with a psychotherapist with a view to going for CBT.so im feeling a bit more positive now.

Hi Diva

hang on in there !

the CBt should be a massive help ,in helping to stop the pattern of thinking like this, and helping you to slow your thinking..possibly an adjustment of your meds too

Sorry you're feeling crappy diva. but 5

I struggle with 2, so I think you should be proud of yourself just for brushing your hair and getting dressed.

i have a bath,get dressed,and do my make up before i take the older 3 to school every morning.i go a bit wobbly if i dont stick to my routines

Well that's good. That is probably why you're organised .

I think having 5 kids would be enough to make your head spin for a while. Go easy on yourself. Try to empty your mind at night. Concentrate on deep breaths in and out, and focus on how your BODY is feeling,not your mind. It might send you off to sleep a bit easier.

"hello"
I think your GP is right about the CBT route, and there are lots of CBT self help books on amazon.

I think you should definately suggest having your medication changed because it sounds useless seen as though you've been taking it this long without affect. I work in this feild so i know my stuff about meds.

You should give yourself a pat on the back for at least acknowledging the way you feel because it all seems ten times harder when your just leaving it all in your head. Good luck and hope you get somewhere soon. (smile) (smile)

hi.i started taking the prozac when i was 12 weeks pregnant because i was very depressed,with that 'black cloud' feeling and having suicidal thoughts etc.it helped very much back then,it took about 6 weeks but i havent felt that 'down' since ive been on it.i am reluctant to try a different AD as i have tried a fair few over the years and they either did nothing,made me feel alot worse,or made me feel drowsy.
my gp is concerned that i will slide back into depression if i stop the prozac now and thinks im better off just carrying on(im only on a low dose)and going for the CBT.