I have Borderline personality disorder, I have always felt unhappy, depressed, OCD, attempted suicide in 20's. Have had 2 nervous breakdowns. One led to suicide attempt, another 4 years ago. Have 8 yr old son and been with partner for 12 years. Father and brother have MH issues.
Feeling total despair atm. Partner wouldn't let me have more kids, finally tried in 2013, had ectopic. Partner not particularly easy to get on with, suffers depression. Good dad to son.
Suffer with health anxiety, convinced my partner is going to die.
Feel suicidal, sick of constant unhappiness. Don't know why I'm posting this. Just utterly worn out. Childhood was crap and it took me so long to get a life. Last 12 years with partner not good, particularly after son born. Have been told I'm a glaucoma suspect, so worried I'll go blind. I'm only 39 and thoroughly sick of life.
Just wanted to say that to someone, as I'm sat here alone at home crying.