Embarrassment of Riches.....

[BaconAndAvocado]

.......is what I have but I still feel very low and can't seem to feel genuinely happy or positive about anything for very long. I'm turning into the type of person I've always disliked. Negative, petty, jealous, constantly comparing myself (unfairly) inferior to others.

I'm 48, healthy and happily married with 3 healthy DCs, we are financially comfortable, I have just started a part-time job that I've been hankering after for years.

IAnd yet, something's not right and I can't seem to change it. I've been feeling this way for a couple of months. A few years ago I suffered with low level anxiety but this feels different.
I used to be such a bright, positive, "glass half full" person. I miss that version of me.

Am I going through a mid-life crisis?

I'm sorry you're feeling low. I could have written your post, it sounds very much like what I'm feeling (though I may never have been a half-glass-full type of person). I started therapy a few months ago and I guess it's helped in some ways. Is therapy something you might be open to?

I would definitely be open to some talk therapy but feel like it should be simpler than that to sort out. When I had low level anxiety the DCs were very young and I found it tough being at home.....now they are at school so I don't feel like I've got a valid reason to be feeling like this, if that makes sense.

I need a reality check or for someone to say "Get a grip".

I keep telling myself to "get a grip" etc.....but I don't seek to be listening!

Getting some taking therapy is the simple option. If you are comfortably well off look at going private and that way you can just go and find something that suits you without needing to go through the GP. You can even get counselling online these days. Getting a bit of therapy when you are feeling low is not a big deal or anything to feel bad about. I promise

Ha! Talking therapy I mean. I'm not sure what taking therapy is but it doesn't sound half as helpful.

Thanks bigly yes maybe I could try something online.

Could it be the 'mid-life crisis' known as the menopause?

My life started feeling 'off' in the run up to it.

Blimey, I didn't even consider that!

Does that mean there's nothing I can do about feeling this rubbish?!

Def could be the menopause....it's a funny but awful time....all of a sudden you feel a desire to question everything and over analyse random stuff....you get moody and many for no reason..going through it at the mo and constantly feel crap....some days have to fight the idea of running awe say off....God knows where I would be going....

Just been away with some old Uni friends. All roughly the same age and yep, I think it could be the start of the menopause!
All going through similar stuff. Though some of them are having tropical moments too so it's not all bad.