stressed , depressed or axnxious or a combination, thats the million dollar question

[ontheslipperyslopeagain]

Name changed as I have not yet found the courage to tell some friends how I am feeling.

I had pnd after the birth of my dd 8 years ago, lasted on and off for 4 years in total, my fault it dragged on as kept coming off ad's as thought I could cope and couldn't.

I have been fine for the past 3/4 years.

I recently moved house and also dh started a new job which had some problems where we thought mortgage not going to be paid etc etc, everything has all turned round now and I have nothing to stress about, everything on the surface seems great, however I have just started to feel really low, a lot of this reminds me how I felt when I had PND. although a lot of things are different.

I am worrying about things I would normally laugh off, I go to say something say the wrong word (which I know we all do) but instead I worry about it, and I now having dizzy spell, which I know is from me worrying and not breathing properly, I have slight numbness in my face and fingers. I am irritable and shout at DD over not much, things that I normally wouldn't be upset about, now seems like 100 times worse.

I am not as tearful as when had pnd, I probaly only cry once a day, pnd it was pretty much on all day.

I went to my doctors yesterday, our usual lovely one is on 2 weeks holiday now and I had to see the stand in, and he was awful listened to what I said and then said you sound a little stressed with whats been happening, give it a few weeks and come back if still the same !!!!!

With pnd I felt as though I had no control over anything, but with this I feel as though I have a little control. Something happens when I would normally freak out, I tell myself its because your ....... etc etc and not always thinking the worse.

I just want to know what I can do to help myself, what makes it more interesting is that I have a best friend who I have pushed to go to the doctors and she has been diagnosed with depression and I am helping her through it, and her symptoms seem a little similar to mine, although mine are much more watered down.

I have looked onweb and there are a lot of stress and depression sites where a lot of the symptoms are similar.

Is it possible to be so stressed but only shows when the actual stress is over with.

i am well aware that I have probably rambled on, apoogies, i'd be amazed if someone has read all this and actually wants to post.

I'm sorry you're feeling low at the moment. I like to tell myself that life is like a roller coaster and you have to take the ups and downs. However reading your message makes me identify with the stress you refer to.
And I don't think that becoming a mother has made my life worse but it sometimes feels like it.
Anyway your not alone and I think that recognising your moment of weakness helps make you better in the long run.

So sorry to hear you're feeling that yu're stressed when you should be happy. You're not alone...

Do go back to the doctor (the lovely one if possible), and take the a/ds if they help, or ask about locally available counselling. It's not a bad thing to need help; it isn't your fault you were depressed (or stressed or whatever it's labelled) before, and it isn't your fault now either!

I always find the hardest part is asking for help in the first place, but it's a very positive step.

Good luck!

Thanks for your comments, it is really hard as I don't want to keep going back to the doctors for ad's when it might get better on its own, but then i dont want to not have the pills and get worse, I won't be able to see my doctor for at least 10 days, I will wait until then and see what happens.