Once again back here through my desperate need for someone to know how I’m feeling.
It seems that no matter what I going on, whatever the situation is the problems never go away. The fight doesn’t stop; it just changes shape. I have bpd, so my moods flip at the smallest things and I struggle mostly with anger, but I also have depression & anxiety so I constantly feel like I’m drowning, just sometimes I’m slightly nearer the surface.
I’m stuck here with no one who can help me or even see what pain I’m in. What’s the point in even trying, there is no support out there, medication doesn’t help and I so constantly want it all to go away. I wish I could get away from myself, I love my children with all my heart and would never leave them, but I don’t see how to go on.
Everything just hurts all the time