I have been reading about Anxiety as it has been much more openly discussed these last few years (or so I've noticed). A lot of the points I can completely relate to - I feel like I am being stared at when out on my own. I always feel like my friends are talking about me behind my back, or are nice to my face but don't really like me. I obsess over things I have said and conversations I've been a part of, hoping I've not upset anyone. I prefer to text or email as I can write and rewrite so as not to come across the wrong way. I think my partner doesn't love me and I am a terrible mother. If I am going to an event or a meeting on my own, I stress about it for days beforehand and feel sick about finding a parking space or the room I'm supposed to be at. I recently had a massage and I couldn't relax at all (even the beautician commented on how tense I was!) as all I was thinking was how to get out of the room and where lunch was going to be served and was the masseuse thinking how awful my skin was.
On the other hand, I have no trouble getting to sleep as I am so exhausted from my mind going so fast all the time that I crash out! This seems to be one of the biggest indicators of officially labelled 'anxiety' so feel perhaps maybe this is just who I am?