I'm a regular poster. Just changed my name because I am ashamed that my life is so rubbish at the moment.
I am under so much stress with my home and personal life right now I don't seem to smile anymore. My house is a tip and I can't seem to get on top of the housework. I have kids but they are with their father for 3 weeks as we share custody.
Because of all this stress in my life I often just want a huge hole to open up and take me away from it all.
On top of the stress in my life I suffer from depression which I hate but I can never make myself feel better.
The real problem is work. I work 35 hours per week but the commute means I am sat on a bus 4 hours per day which adds to my stress. Our systems have recently changed at work and I am struggling with the new programs we use on the computer. I try to discuss my concerns with my management of which there are 7 team managers for the department and none of them can seem to help me. They just basically fob me off and tell me to struggle along and soon I will pick it up like everyone else has. I have therefore come to hate work. I have had some days off sick but not many at all.
I have come to dread work so much I actually cry the night before and can't sleep as I am so worried as of what the next day will bring. I ended up phoning in sick today as I was so depressed and dreading work and was thinking of not going in until Saturday, so having Wednesday and Friday off. Thursday is my usual day off. I am planning to look for a new job on these days off. Would it be wrong of me to stay off? I do feel immense guilt not showing up but I am just so much dreading work you cannot believe and no one will have an extra workload. Should I go in or would it be reasonable for me to stay off?