Not suicidal but DH will not leave me alone.

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Ok I have had 1 previous overdose and I am low ATM. But I am not suicidal. How can I get some space.

The fucker has even locked all my tablets up.

I just need time alone, I need to cry without anyone looking ATM me and asking what's up.

He loves you and is afraid of your lows. He cannot measure the extremity in the same way you can. Perhaps speak to him about needed alone time and let him air his worries and come up with a strategy which will allow you your alone time. Perhaps texting every X minutes or hours, so he knows you’re okay?

I know it feels stifling but it comes from a good place.
I hope you feel happier soon

He loves you and he is scared. My DH has made multiple attempts so I can see his perspective. He likely beat himself up about not spotting the signs before and is terrified of missing early warning signs again. Theres no harm in him locking up your tablets really as a safety precaution.

On the otherhand I can also see your perspective. DH struggles to understand that my urges to self harm are not linked to feeling suicidal and can get a bit OTT.

Our CPNs have helped us develop a scoring system out of 10 to communicate how good or bad we are feeling which really helps us to keep things in perspective and understand how each other are feeling better. I wonder if you could use something similar to communicate that although you are low you are not that low.

Thank you, been sleeping most of the day just so tired. I don't think he knows how much sleep is needed when I'm having bad days.