So this is really hard for me to write! So laterly I don't even recognise myself, I have locked myself away, ignoring everyone, snappy. I went to doctors on Friday and they just said they will refer me again to well being ( I'm already with them) I was on citalopram which I stopped myself because I was stupid I am currently 29 weeks pregnant with my 5th baby, I have had really bad suicidal thoughts and thoughts about harming my 10 month old little girl(I wouldn't hurt her) it's like it's become a obsession and I can get it to stop! I don't wanna speak to anyone about it as don't wanna lose my kids, I just wanna be normal, someone please tell me there's a way out and things will get better thanks