I hit myself in the head tonight with an aerosol can repeatedly, DP's boot (not on his foot at the time) and my hands. My head is covered in lumps. I have used my hair pin to scratch my arm.
There is no one to just give me a hug and tell me everything is ok. DP has just gone to bed and gets angry if I get upset which escalates things for me making me do things to myself. I feel so lonely- there is no one I can think of who I would contact to support me. This was after walking down a pitch Black Country road on my own hoping to get hit by a car. Everything feels so bad but in the morning life will be back to normal except I can't sleep so morning is taking too long.....