Took ADs for a while very reluctantly - put dd part-time in a day nursery and started doing some work again !
What I didn't do - and really regret - is tell dh ! He doesn't "believe in depression" and seems to think people are swinging the lead if they say they are dpressed - so I felt I couldn't - and tbh it has left a huge gap between us !
For me - I think going back to work helped a lot as I felt I had got myself back again - and when I was miserable at home I felt I had lost myself !
She's 6 now and I work fulltime and am constantly knacked and stressed - but it is better as I feel I have a value iykwim ! I don't think I was cut out for motherhood really !