Can't believe I'm here again

[Ikeatears]

So I've had a couple of 'breakdowns' the main one being two years ago which culminated in a short stay in hospital.
My diagnosis is anxiety and depression. I've felt well for about 6 months and I stopped taking my meds over summer. I'm an idiot.
I feel so anxious and it seems to be slowly getting worse.
My mum is very poorly and dsis cries every time we see/talk about her. I don't. I think dsis either thinks I'm heartless or bottling it up and should let it out like her. If I do get upset at home, dh worries that it's only because I'm ill. I don't know how I'm supposed to react or even feel.
I've gone back to being self employed recently. Maybe that's why I'm stressed?
Or am I just ill because I didn't takes my meds? I don't know what to think anymore :-(

Have you got any coping stratagies that have helped in the past that you could use? If you feel that you are slipping again going back to see your GP is a good idea. Stress has a tendancy to trigger mental health problems, maybe now is not the right time to be going without the medication.

I know I should probably go back on the meds but I hate how they make me feel nothing. They also kill my libido. I'd forgotten how to fancy my husband :-(
I just don't know. I hate this constant ache in my chest.

Hi, I too suffer with severe anxiety and came off my meds when I started feeling better - big mistake. I'm now in a similar boat and feel terrible. I've started taking them again and am talking to my psychiatrist about how I feel - reach out to someone even if it's the samaritans they're there to help and get back on your medication x

I'm sick of medication.