I don't know what to do about anxiety

[crazycatgal]

I've have diagnosed anxiety and Body Dysmorphic Disorder and am currently in a bad place and don't know what to do.

I've preciously had around 20 sessions of CBT and it did absolutely nothing for me. I've been on sertraine for the past 4 years but have stopped after putting on several stones of weight. As you can imagine putting on this much weight doesn't help my BDD and this increases my anxiety, so I couldn't stay on that medication any more.

My anxiety is awful day to day and I am about to start my masters degree and I am taking driving lessons and I feel like I'm failing at everything due to my anxiety. My anxiety is really bad before and during driving lessons and I think that when I start uni the public transport and seminars are going to stop me from attending.

I don't know what the hell to do. I want to be better but I don't want to go onto another SSRI as getting so big has made me hate myself more than I did before, and as I said CBT didn't work. Honestly some days I just question why I'm still here anymore and I just wan't to feel better.

I'm sorry if I rambled on.

I understand. I can't offer any sage words just now because I am struggling too. I stopped ssris in January and lost nearly 3 stone . I can't go back on meds

Hi Crazycatgirl. I have been where you are now, and I understand why you are struggling to cope. SRIs are tricky at the beginning, they take a while to be successful and can make you feel much worse to begin with. Even when they are working, they will only give you a boost. They won't make your anxiety go away. I would really suggest mindfulness meditating... have you tried the Headspace App? This made a big difference to me. Pm me if you want to chat xx