So, I finally sought help for my constant low mood and suicidal thoughts. I'm mainly doing this for DP as I am a nightmare to live with.
Doctor has given me ADs and 2 weeks sick note. I'm not sure I can justify 2 weeks off work , thing is this is nothing new to me. I feel the same now as I did a year ago, 2 years ago, 10 years ago. all my life. So I'm not sure what good 2 weeks off work will do as work isn't really the problem, I am the problem. Though work does seem to be a trigger recently, I find my current role so boring that the intrusive thoughts have a chance to get in more than usual.
DP reckons if I just ignore the note and go to work tomorrow then I will be seen as not following doctors orders and not being serious about sorting myself out.