Where can I get some motivation from??!

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I just can't get motivated or excited about anything lately, feeling even worse today because was up half the night with DS who has a cold and couldn't sleep, so I'm knackered as well.

I've spent the week so far sitting at work staring at the computer and doing nothing - just staring! Just can't seem to make myself do anything - was going to go to the shops at lunchtime (2 min walk away) but it seems like an enormous effort to actually get up and go out! I've been quite busy in the evenings this week - had people round for tea, going out tomorrow night with people from work, etc - but instead of looking forward to them it feels as though I'm forcing myself to do it when really I just feel like sitting in bed and eating cakes!

If I get loads done at home or at work and have a productive day I feel really positive, but when I can't get motivated its like a downward spiral because I don't get anything done, so feel more depressed, so can't concentrate, then can't get motivated, etc, etc..

I'm always having these up and downs - can feel fine for a while and then suddenly just can't be bothered with anything and everything is doom and gloom. I've seen the HV and GP about PND as I found it really hard going after DS was born (he's 7.5 months now) and I'm now seeing a counsellor (although because its on the NHS the appointments are only about once a month).

Felt really positive after I saw the counsellor - she made me think about a lot of things and I had a good chat with DP afterwards about how he can help me too, but it just wears off and its three weeks until I can see her again. Not keen on taking ADs - have taken them in the past and they just made me feel kind of numb and not especially happy.

ANyway, sorry about the rambling - just wanted to get that out of my system and feel as though I'm being productive even though I still haven't done any work!

Can't say much, just want to say I am thinking of you! I had a mild case of PND (triggered by my Ma's death during pg and coming out after the first months as a family) when dd was about 9 months old. It will get better! It might take some time but it will. Just take one day at a time. I know that sometimes even getting out of bed seems a challenge. And being frustrated in the evening about not seeing any progress in the housework etc. does not help. Just wanted to let you know you are not alone. Talk talk talk if you want to - helped me!

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Thanks linjasmom, I've just been out at lunchtime which has made me feel a bit better (although I did spend too much money!). I remember a counsellor saying to me that when I have days when I feel crap and just can't be bothered to do anything, I tend to beat myself up about it and feel guilty and worry about having no motivation and get myself into negative thoughts. What I should do is just accept that today is a bad day and go with it - just get to the end of the day and think tomorrow is a new day and I could wake up feeling much better. So I'm going to try and do that to get through today.

Hello, just want to let you know that I feel the same way you do sometimes.

I've found that the best thing for me is to make sure that I do something, no matter how small (even just put on a load of washing) before I do anything else (like turn on the t.v. or computer). That way I know I've done something productive even if I don't get round to doing anything else all day, and it stops me feeling guilty. I also try to make myself leave the house even when I don't want to.

You are not alone

defo not alone, dd is now 22 months and still get those feelings