don't know if i am depressed again or problems caused by something else, not posted on this section before

[bouncy]

I suffered bad pnd 7 years ago after ds.

I was on ad's for a few years before slowly getting life back on track.

Rcently had a few family issues which were quite stressful, but they ae completely sorted now and for the first time in months I am relatively stress free, however......

For the past week I have felt really low, weird as everything else in my life is going ok, i not been sleeping right cant seem to find the right pillow, and seem to wake up with a stiff neck now and again, I have tried so many different pillows, some too hard some too soft etc etc (god I sound like goldilocks) the reason I may suspect depression is I worrying about little things and being totally irrational, it feel funny when i walk, like I am aware of putting my leg down when I walk (writing this I sound like a complete nut nub) and that my hand is a little numb, but I had these symptoms last time, it was like I scanned my body for the tiniest fault and concentrated on it and before long I had convinced myself I had a massive problem, but with the not sleeping well it could be because my neck is a little sore.

I go to say something and cant think of the word, this worries me, but its because I am beating myself up about it and panicking, I had this last time as well. I had panick attacks last time, but not had any this time.

know I have rambled on and apologies, just needed to write it down.

migth also add its only seems to be when I am alone or have time to really think, when I work part time, I have a good day and manage to function well at work with my mind busy.

Hi bouncy - just wanted to send hugs. I don't know the answer but I suffer with depression and can empathise with how you're feeling - when I'm feeling low I sometimes get really restless legs and can't sleep, and the tiniest thing becomes a big worry. Have you only felt like this for the past week or has it been going on for longer? Could it be hormonal - I don't want to trivialise it but I know that sometimes I can feel fine for ages and then feel absolutely crap without realising its that time of the month and I start thinking its the start of depression but it only last a week or so until my period starts. Some of my symptoms are similar, numb hand, can't find words, etc and it sometimes turns into a migraine.

Whats your doctor like? If it carries on it might be worth having a word with them just to check on the physical things to reassure yourself there isn't anything wrong.

Anyway hopefully someone will be along with better advice, hope you are ok.

thanks, its been for about 4/5 days now.

I have very abnormal periods skipping most, I do usually get them around the time of the month, but that lasts a few days this is slightly longer and slightly different.

Thanks for reply.

My gp is brill, but called today and she is on holiday, so have booked the next appointment which is on the 17th April, so long enought to see if its a passing thing, and if still feeling the same when i see her, then I know its something more.