I've just kicked an internal wall in my house in temper. It's put a hole in the plaster board!!! Obviously if you kick a wall this is likely to happen but we are selling our house and my OH is understandably pissed with me.
My anger has been getting progressively worse after a tough year of marriage problems and an unexpected pregnancy.
This current episode is because I asked my OH (in a polite respectful way) to pace himself when he goes out tonight because his hangovers are bad and ruin the weekends which is rubbish when you have 3 kids. His response to this is "stop moaning at me & telling me what to do".
This angered me because I wasn't nagging him or telling him what to do just asking politely.
My DD then sent my dad a video (of her cutting up an Oreo cookie) with me & OH arguing in the background. This annoyed me further so I kicked the wall.
How do I fix this? My OH really rubs it in when I've ballsed up which I know I have (again!) but I can't control my anger when it happens.
I cracked my bed a few months ago, again kicking it in anger as well as bending the hinges on a door during a fight a few months back.
I find my OH very antagonistic and don't ever express myself with anyone else.
I'm considering anti depressants but I'm breastfeeding so can't take any at the mo but do you think this will help with my anger?
I feel so ashamed with myself afterwards especially as my kids have witnessed this episode.