For months now I've been holding it together. DH cheated on me and left me in February and initially I was doing okay but then I fell apart and became suicidal. I sought help and I have been doing okay. I'm still not anywhere close to happy and he has continued with his antics which have affected me but now, my mood is deteriorating drastically. I just want to go and curl up in bed and hide. Or run away. I have two young DDs so hiding in bed isn't an option and I also know it wouldn't be beneficial. But I'm struggling right now and the fight just doesn't feel worth it.