Feels like I'm sinking..

[heatherxo]

And it's getting worse each day. I can't talk to anyone in rl, I can't let them see I'm losing.
I don't know what to do anymore.
Recently been diagnosed with BPD, on top of my depression and I just can't handle it. Maybe it was better not knowing..
I just found out I'm pregnant too. If I tell anyone how I'm really feeling I think they'll intervene. I have a 2 year old son, he's my world but he's hard work and I never feel like I'm good enough.
I don't even know why I'm rambling, or what I expect anyone to say, I just need to put it out there.
I feel like I'm losing my grip on reality. I feel like I can't cope anymore....

I'm not sure I know exactly what to say, except that you shouldn't feel embarrassed about having MH problems - it really is incredibly common. Once I started telling a few people, I was amazed how many people said "oh, I've had that too."

for you

Hang in there...There is help out there and things can and will get better. I didn't believe anyone who told me that but it is true! Hugs.

Do you have any mental health professionals involved? If not I would go to your GP as a starting point to get you the right support. No one will ever critisise you for seeking support for yourself with relation to your DCs, its the best thing you can do for you and for them.