When it feels like it'll never be better - what do you do?

[Neverwasapancakegi7l]

Just that really.
I feel like I will never be me again and that this awful anxiety will be all there is for the rest of my life.
There is nothing in my life now except the anxiety. It sits constantly, a huge dominating presence. I can never get rid of it, it follows me everywhere, whatever I'm doing. I feel I will never be free and as though I will never enjoy anything again. I can't eat and I can't sleep. I've lost 10lbs in the last two weeks because I genuinely have eaten nothing more than half a piece of toast a day for nearly a month. All I want to do is cry and cry and cry and nothing makes it any better.

It's like this huge burden all the time and all the things that used to bring pleasure now bring nothing at all.
What do you do when it's like that?

You sound in a really bad way. Have you seen your doctor? Normally I'd say go for a walk, buy some chocolate, listen to some happy music, watch a comedy on TV, that sort of thing, but you sound so low that I think you need something more than that. Can you try to see your doctor on Monday?

Ive been to the GP and have got some different anti depressants as the first ones did nothing. It's only been a week so it's too soon to know whether or not they are doing anything. Apparently it can take a month or so. It seems a long time.

Allow yourself time to wallow safe indoors, then go out. Even just a walk for a minute will help. Walk for a minute today, then try and build it up. It's amazing how much just going into fresh air does help!

I have been out most of the day outside but it just comes with me wherever I go. A sinister disconnected feeling. It feels like this is the temporary time before something terrible happens.

I suffer from anxiety and for last 2 weeks I barely ate anything, the end of this week I decided I had to try so started with a smoothie in the morning (just the kid size ones) and then tried to have some soup in the afternoon. It definitely helped to start with more liquid type foods and I've managed to progress each day with eating a bit more. I really feel for you, it's awful when the anxiety stops you eating and sleeping.

Thank you for replying.

I'm finding I just have no appetite. If I try and eat I get that horrible full feeling and I can't swallow whatever it is I'm attempting to eat. I'm struggling to drink anything too but I'm trying because I think I might be dehydrated and I'm a type 1 diabetic and I don't think the two are good together.

Maybe soup would be a good idea, maybe I'd be able swallow that. I will get some tomorrow, thanks for that idea.

I think I've just about exhausted any support from family - I hardly have any family anyway - and I've let all my friendships slide. I haven't seen anyone socially for nearly two years aside from play dates with the children. I haven't had an evening out anywhere or a day or even an hour out without the children since my daughter was born nearly two years ago. I can't be bothered and now basically I have no friends although I used to have quite a few back when I wasn't so sad all the time.

This might not help you, I don't know, but earlier this year I felt exactly the same as you. It felt like hope was gone, and life would never be happy again. Now, a few months down the line and a couple of months into medication, I have moments when I feel like life is good, some when I feel like life is great, some when I feel like there is no hope, so it's more of a mix now of how it used to be. It will get better. I promise you. I have completely isolated myself pretty much too, I don't know how to actually change anything, but I am starting to feel better in myself, and you can too. In terms of eating, it helped me to view my body like a machine, to step back from the emotional side of eating, and just take food in like fuel, because on a base level we know we need food and sleep to survive, so try and give your body that. We also need connection, and that will come again in time. For both of us I hope. Take care.

Thank you for thinking of me.

I am about the same. I haven't been able to eat still. I did get some soup and had about four mouthfuls and that was it.
Ds has been very very draining - he is at the high functioning end of the autistic spectrum and has to explain everything over and over again to the nth degree. He also was completely over the top when we had to go to the shops, really high motor activity and noises. I think it is the stress of going back to school. He doesn't like it as he struggles socially and doesn't really have any friends. He's very very quirky and speaks in a very adult way which the other children find weird and I'm not sure what I can do to help him. He has major issues around eating and sleeping and is still not reliably dry at night even though he is 8.

I am so tired of worrying about my children.

I never come on this thread but just searched it as am feeling the same. Your post called to me. I am sorry you are having such a hard time. I totally understand the physical inability to eat much. I have the same and have also lost a lot of weight in the last month. I am trying to accept that i can't handle much but trying to eat more regularly. I am also trying to exercise which seems to help although a real struggle to get going. I constantly wonder if this is me now and why I can't just be happy with my beautiful children. Then i feel guilty which makes it even worse.

Hi, I think if you're diabetic and not eating at all then your low blood sugar will be having a serious impact on how you feel. It really would be good to talk to the GP or even the practice nurse if you would find that easier to see what sort of food and drink you could manage. Soup is a great idea, as suggested already on the thread, and build-up drinks would give you concentrated energy that might be easier for you to take in when you don't feel up to eating - these can even be prescribed for you. But if for no other reason than to stabilise your diabetes, it would be really good for you to talk to a medical person. Good luck xx