My MH is just fucked up right now. I'm remembering things from the past (not abuse exactly but distressing nonetheless), making risky choices I normally wouldn't and my self thought is so up and down. I feel low and self hating now but confident and in control yesterday.
I know I'm a terrible person. I know I'm pretty Fucking shit. I have an inability to say "no" and I'm so fucking angry all the time.
I want to see a counsellor/psychotherapist privately but not sure how to find a decent/recommended one?
I don't know I've not been 100% right in about a year but this last month to six weeks has been something else.
I'm waffling now. I hope nobody I know reads this that's why I NC'd I'm a frequent poster.