I need some advice as I just don't know where my head is at the moment.
I have a nearly 7 month DD and I am 9.5 weeks pregnant.
Since finding out I was expecting#2 (planned but happened VERY quickly), I have been feeling more and more low in myself.
I used to look forward to weekends when dh was home, but the monotony of life now just makes the weeks all melt together into 1 continuous day, or at least that's how it feels.
I don't really have anything to look forward to, or at least that's how life feels right now.
I adore my dd, she is the most beautiful little baby, albeit a little moany, but sometimes I look at her and think "should I feel more", because I feel so empty. I feel just awful for even typing that.
I want DD to have a sibling, and I want them close in age as my sister and I have o ly 13 months between us. DD and her sibling will have 14 months.
I find myself only really thinking about when they are 2/3yo, and looking forward to that which seems a lifetime away, as the monotony of life with a baby who only really naps at home is making me feel so trapped.
Dh and I ahve had no time without her since she was born, I don't feel like I can leave her, or that we have anyone willing or able to help us out.
Because all of this really kicked in after finding out I was pregnant again, I just don't know if it's my hormones, or if I have pnd. Anyone else felt like this? Desperately need some help.