I really f***ing hate my life!!!!!!!

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I am sick of this fucking shit!!!!

I'm listening. Talk to me. What's happening?

I think we all feel like that at some-point in our life. I know I have in the past.

Feel mentally and physically shit!!!!
I've had 4 kids.
Now with a partner of 2 years and all I seem to be doing is pushing him away and I can't tell if it is my head or it is actually him!
Hate my body!!!!
Waiting to speak to someone on time to talk.
I have never felt this crap!
Life is not fun anymore and I'm only 26!!!!!

No he is at work today, and yeah same here still in my pjs. I want to go back to sleep 😴 I've got my 4 year old twins though and my 8 month old to look after.

hey are getting any sleep at the moment. with twins and a baby it must be hard.

sleep deprivation is very hard to cope with

I have been quite lucky actually my 8 month old slept through the night about 3 months. But he keeps turning into his stomach and I'm petrified of him blocking his nose on the mattress so I keep turning him back on his back. My 4 kids do sleep through the night but I always seem wake up at like 3 or 4 in the morning.

I'm always so miserable! It's like I can't be happy!!! Considering all the crap I have been through, I have got quite lucky!!!

I watched the film called bad mums last night and in the end of the film they got asked wether they had a good childhood, so I thought of mine and really tried to think of a happy memory!! But all it insists of is saying good byes and my dad hitting my brother in the face and some next door neighbour trying it on with me and I was about 5 and luckily my bro caught him and having my Pants pulled down in front of everyone not family members and they started laughing and I ran away crying!! I did enjoy the swimming pool if that counts.

Oh darling. You poor thing.
Do you think you may be suffering depression?

Maybe you need some counselling to pricess some of your scary.and hard childhood.

I'm sorry I disappeared. I'm behind on my uni work.

Which is something I'm desperate to do to prove I'm not useless...