Hello
This is my first time on here, i was recommended to give it a try so here goes.
Ive not been to a drs or been diagnosed with anything but i know something is not right. I feel depressed most days, i get angry over the slightest thing and i just feel like an empty shell of what i used to be. I have nobody i feel i can talk to except my husband but he doesnt help as you will find out when I explain how i feel. This maybe a very long post so I apologise for rambling on.
I have been with my husband 14yrs since i was 16, we have been married 3yrs next month and have 2 beautiful girls 1 is 4yrs 1 is only 4 months.
Basically i have always been jealous always feeling my husband is gonna leave me for someone better even tho he has never given me reason to think this, i think so little of myself and i do believe a big part of it is my weight gain over past few years ive got like 5 stone ideally to loose and it seems like such a battle to get it off! My husband has told me he would like me to loose the weight over the years but ive struggled and he now feels let down by me not doing it. I feel low and depressed that he doesnt show me enough love as ive told him i wish he would hug me more and just show more care towards me even tho he tells me he loves me everyday and has told me he doesn't get why i feel so low he doesn't feel theres anything more he can do to help me and thinks i need to speak to someone professional. I dont know if im depressed or what i am!? I know i just feel so down and not good enough for anyone. X