I suffer from anxiety and panic attacks. It started 4 years back and it was due to my marriage - but that's another thread. Due to this I have struggled to get into trains and planes...mainly due to the feeling of being trapped. Last year I cancelled a trip to visit my parents because I just couldn't face getting into the flight. DD is 3 and it has been a constant concern of mine that she is growing up without seeing her kith and kin. We both (husband and I) have no family here.
I have worked really hard...no medicine or CBT but managed to get to the point of actually booking the tickets. If I don't have a massive panic attack we would fly on Sunday.
It's a 16 hour flight with a break in Dubai. I have pre warned my mother that I will try me best not make it until the end but cannot promise anything. I don't know why I'm posting this, i suppose just for somebody to understand what I'm going through