I have battled and battled with my anxiety and possible depression. I've told health professional after health professional who has just down played it. I've been waiting a month for an appointment to have my contraceptive implant removed in the hope that this would help. In the last week I've dealt with my dad (who I have to live with, with my 2yo) turning back to alcoholism and refusing to give it up, I've been scammed out of £150 and I've come out of a very controlling and abusive relationship. I've honestly never felt so low but what's been keeping me going is that I have this appointment to have my implant removed which will hopefully help and I could also talk to my doctor about what I'm dealing with, so I have coped and managed my feelings really well with this in mind.
Well this morning it turns out the receptionist has made an error and booked me in for too short an appointment and they had to cancel. I've arranged childcare and I can't do it again for the foreseeable as all the appointments they had are not possible due to childcare. I feel completely and utterly broken. I can't stop crying and crying and crying and I don't know how I'm going to get through. I want it out. I don't really know why im posting as I don't think there is anything anyone can do but right now I'm sitting here uncontrollably crying and I thought having an outlet might help.