Hi, so I feel like it's time to open up a little as I'm really struggling with everything at the moment! As a child I basically dragged myself up, my brother and sisters always had there dads to escape to where as mine was absent. My mum a heavy drinker with multiple men in her life! I remember growing up partners hitting her when they were drunk and a lot of abusive behaviour. She dared me to overdose at aged 13 and watched me do it and made me call my own ambulance, performed sexual acts on men with me sat other side of the table. So I moved out on my own aged 20 after sofa surfing for years. I met the love of my life and we got engaged and got a home together. However this is lovely this year has been the worst of my life!
January my mum got out family dog of 17 years put to sleep as she didn't want him anymore
February found out i had misscarried not even knowing I was pregnant for then months later hospital saying they got it wrong and I hadn't I wasn't even pregnant.
April found out I was actually pregnant this time thought everything was well
June we lost our baby and lost a part of us at the same time
This year I also lost my best friend to suicide
I'm really struggling with 2017 and really don't see a way forward from here finding out I may be pregnant again I just don't know what to do with myself I just have so much feeling inside
With no supporting family or friends only my fiancé I'm really really struggling 😞😞