PND is ruining my life

[CaptWentworth]

I'm scared and ashamed, which is why I've NC. There is no reason for me to feel this way. I have a great DH and a gorgeous baby boy. I am on sertraline 50mg for PND and anxiety, and besides a very small improvement, nothing seems to be happening.

Every morning I open my eyes and think 'Fuck. I have to do it all again.' I'm so tired and drained, there is nothing of me left. I can't remember the last time I put make up on, or got excited about something, slept with my husband or even laughed. It must be the most dreary thing to be married to me, and yet he's still here, trying to make me happy.

I don't know what I'm expecting anyone to say to me. I don't even think I have any questions. I just can't discuss this in RL.

I was there and i know how you feel. It does get better, how old is your baby. I know i started to fell better at about 11 months, when i went back to work and got a bit of normality back. Its hard.

I got there too. My advice is be kind to yourself.
Things that might help are; regular exercise (outside if possible), evening primrose oil (high strength), eat properly, drink water, time off - get a babysitter and do something for yourself (regularly if you can), CBT helped me get a bit of perspective

I know my suggestions are not rocket science but it's easy to forget the basics when you are have a baby. Good luck

Ps. Go back to your gp if your medication isn't working.

Oh and try yoga if you can

My LO is 4 months old. He is so squishy and adorable, although he has an aversion to sleeping and feeding at the moment. GP gave me a pat on the head and asked if it was my first baby [head tilt]

I'm reassured that he's healthy, but I feel that I cannot please him sometimes.

Thank you for your replies. My GP suggested doubling my dose of sertraline, but I'm breastfeeding and although he said it's safe, I'm feeling anxious about it.

I think you should go back to your GP and get an increase of sertraline. It is completely safe. You maybe aren't on a therapeutic dose yet

I felt the same, I knew I was so lucky to have my husband and son and that I had no reason to be down. But I was. The good news is I'm not anymore. It didn't last too long.

One of my babies (I have 3 now) was a terrible sleeper and it turned out that he had a dairy intolerance. It was going through my breast milk. I would try going dairy free for a week or two if you can and see if it makes any difference. You can't be sane without sleep!