Please help - I am at my wits end and don't know how to proceed. To summarise: I have been on Fluexotine (low dose) for many months due to having horrendous PMT. It seems to have helped and I regularly visit my GP for checks etc. Other than that I am fit and healthy. I work out regularly, I have a very responsible job and lead a very busy life.
Up until a while back I also used to be very 'social'. I have a big family who live close by who I would see socially quite often, I would always attend work social events etc. Quite frankly, I also enjoyed a drink and chat and letting my hair down on quite a regular basis.
However, over the last few months I feel that I am becoming increasingly reclusive in some ways. Work is fine - I still feel very confident about talking to people at work and there is no problem there (although am not keen to attend social events). I see most of my family regularly although a lot less frequently than I did. My partner and I try to have breaks away as much as possible and I LOVE this, as I love seeing new places etc. But bizarrely, the people who live closest to me (ie, family, people in community, friends) I almost dread seeing. I don't know why this is.
Partly since I have been on medication but also partly because I have got a bit fed up of drinking, I have drastically reduced my alcohol intake (which I think is a good thing). I wonder if, looking back, drinking alcohol when out just gave me a falsely sociable persona. Nevertheless, when I'm away from time to time I will have a few drinks with my dp and have a wonderful time. This probably does not sound like much of a problem - by working such long hours I have little some weeks to see people anyway. But - I am off work at the moment on holiday and dp asked this morning if I wanted to go out locally for a drink this afternoon. A couple of years ago I would have loved it, but I actually felt stressed about the idea. However, I also felt stressed about the idea of staying in, in the way that I wish I DID have the mojo to go out. I do have the mojo to do other things - this week I have been decorating the house, and, as I've said I keep fit and am also studying. In fact, in some ways I am extremely motivated.
I have asked dp if I come across as depressed but he says I do not. Fortunately day to day, I do feel pretty content at home in the evenings etc, and I do feel that I want to be with him.
This probably sounds rambling and may not make sense but I just wondered whether anybody else had gone through such a thing.