I'm aware this sounds a bit pathetic but I feel I need to offload about it. I tend to get episodes of feeling very upset and low whenever I encounter someone being rude or unpleasant towards me. Especially if I have made a mistake. Sometimes it might just be small. It can last for days and it sort of takes over everything and I almost zone out and can't concentrate on anything else. It completely eats me up and consumes me. I also get into a frame of mind where I tend to retreat and not trust people. I obsess over it too, beating myself up on the one hand blaming myself but in the other feeling really angry at the injustice of it. I place too much importance on it probably.
Also, quite often I will feel like this about something that has happened in the past.
For example I'll be happily getting on with things then I'll start thinking about a past encounter and it will just blacken everything (if that's the right word) and everything is just bad. I wish I could learn to toughen up and brush things off.
I think I probably get this from my upbringing. My mother was abusive and extremely emotional in a negative way and there was never any regulation of feelings. Her primary concern is what people think, I was and still am a bad apple, forever doing things wrong. They say I made their lives hell and have caused them so many problems.
Not sure why I writing this but I'm feeling that way now as I've received a condescending unpleasant email from someone. I don't think I'm right in the head. But maybe it is normal to feel this way when upset?
Just wondered if anyone can relate at all,