My anxiety is through the roof

[DavetheCat2001]

I have suffered for years, been on AD's but managed to ween myself off them a few months ago..thought this was for the best and didn't want to be relying on medication to get me through..plus I thought I was feeling better etc..

But it's back with a vengeance..a few things going on, but the thing that is sending my stress soaring today is that I have one of DS's school friends coming over at 10am and I am taking them plus my 4 year old to the park for a bit as his mum needs to get some sleep before her nightshift this evening.

She asked, I agreed as really it shouldn't be a big deal to help a friend out should it? But my goodness I am worrying about everything...fixing his car seat into my car properly, getting him to the park safely, not losing him or my two in the park when they scatter (which they always do..DS is 6 and wants to explore/play footie/run off etc) and DD wants to join in with the boys but ultimately just annoys them and gets in the way so gets stroppy/melts down etc..then she goes one way and they go the other...1 adult to 3 kids ratio isn't ideal..

Then I am bringing him back here for lunch so my flat will be rampaged through and trashed...I don't have a house and our garden is ridiculously small and not particularly child friendly.

Sigh..it's only for a few hours..mum is picking him up again at 1.30ish, but I've built this up in my head to a massive deal..auugh..how can some women cope so well with kids/playdates etc, and I can't? I am struggling with my own at the moment!

NB - have just made an app to see the GP as think I may need to concede and get back on the AD's for a bit, but the first available appointment isn't until Aug 30th.

Sorry..just ranting really, thanks for reading if you have done. Roll on this evening!

Well I'm here at the park, big girls pants on.

A few meltdowns but not too bad. DD is being tricky though and disturbing the boys football game.

Talking to myself here I know, but sometimes just writing stuff down helps.

I hear you, OP.

I don't much like play dates either. I get all anxious at pick up time and worry my food won't be nice etc.

Have you tried Propanolol? It's been miraculous for me

Thanks for replying PearlyPinkNails

I was on Sertraline for a couple of years (prescribed the day my dad died suddenly ironically), and it seemed to keep me on an even keel. Mind you I don't even think I know what that means anymore.

I've never heard of Propanodol..I shall certainly have a read up and mention it to the GP.

DS's friend ended up staying till 3pm as we were late back from the park/lunch, and then his mum stayed for an hour chatting..she is lovely and it was nice to have some conversation with another adult!

My two are bouncing off the walls now though . DD is overtired and fractious..I can't let her nap in the day anymore as she just will not go to bed at night if she has any sleep during the day.

I'm feeling so worn out and tired all the time. I never have any energy, and OH and I have zero sex life as I just can't be arsed...poor bugger.

I eat well, I try and run 2-3 times a week and yet nothing helps lift my mood. I just worry about EVERYTHING.

I find grown up life really scary.

I know exactly what you mean. Real life is quite scary sometimes.

Propanolol are a beta blocker which is great as when I start getting physical symptoms such as racing heart, butterflies etc, I can't feel it. So my body tells my brain that everything is ok so I relax.

They really help me x

Thanks..I'll definitely mention those to the GP, maybe they'll help.

Glad to hear they are helping you x