I feel so useless

[sobeyondthehills]

This might be long and I cant be arsed to nc

Actually its not that long, I feel like shit because I can barely leave the house and I have a 5 year old son.

What the fuck am I going to do with him? For informaion I have GAD, Agoraphobia, which are part and parcel.

This was not meant to be our life

Hi sobey, do you mean for the summer hols?

yes please and thank you for replying

Invite his school friends to yours. Make it really fun. He should then get invites back

Fight the urge to stay indoors. Practice going out every day. (It's a bit like doing push-ups, you cannot not do them for a stretch of time and then expect being able to do them all of a sudden.) That you feel useless now, doesn't mean you'll always have to feel useless, it's a temporary feeling and will pass.

You could read books for your son. That will do a lot of good for him, reading with mum (you read, he looks at the pictures). Borrow books at a library, or buy used ones in bookshops, or - if you've got or can get a (new or used) Kindle, you can get them online, and don't need to leave the house. Having books read for oneself is one of the best ways to later succeed in school and, much later, high school and university, according to various sources (mine being an article in the Guardian where I checked the fact before posting).

Thank you both, I invited his friends round before end of term, I have had couple come round, some not reply, none of them have invited back.

We have a dog that we walk regularly, so staying in all day is not an option.

But I still feel like crap, I knew this holiday would be hard, so have done things to try and prepare and have worked really hard in trying to leave the house, but it is tough and I get so irritable.

No, no one close. I did try and make friends with some of the mum's but nothing has really come from it.

Most of my friends dont have kids, so they don't really get it.

I would say keep trying to develop those friendships even if it feels one sided and very hard at the moment. Your lovely child will benefit a lot .