Sorry long, but don't want to drip feed
Best friend is in her 40's, she has some self harm scars, which we've talked about before, they are from 20+ years ago.
For various things that are going on in my life reasons I saw her in knickers and a vest top, there are a lot of fresh cuts, like from her knee to her knickers (maybe further, I don't know) on both legs and elbow to shoulder on both arms, so everywhere no one would see. None of them are deep, they are all clean cuts with a stanley blade. She has also cleaned them a lot more than is needed because she says she likes the pain of the TCP.
We talked for hours, there is zero chance of her going to her GP, she's been depressed for a long time, they gave her some medication, it made her suicidal, her depression was triggered by her sister killing herself, she took herself off the medication because she doesn't want to put her mum through the pain of losing another child and won't go back to the doctors. I've tried telling her she isn't her sister, different meds have different effects etc but she is very adamant and very stubborn.
Her mum is the other side of the world, she has no family here, just me and DD(8) so just me that can support her.
Nobody else knows and I can't think of anyone close enough to her to tell, like i said life is shit, DD is very, very ill (I went round in the middle of the night because I'm scared and I needed my best friend) I love best friend almost as much as I love DD, almost but right now I have to be mum and even the hours already talking to her were more than i really had to give, time-wise and emotionally, DD needs me and I can't do this, any other time I'd have left DD with DH and given best friend my full attention but I can't, I can't handle my own emotions right now, or DD's (or DH's, but he has parents that can be strong for him).
I have struggled with self harm for years and am really struggling with this. - I have help for me, I am just about on top of my problem, I don't want or need advice for me and wasn't going to mention it but I can't do the normal be there and talk it through because I'm just barely stopping myself right now and listening to her already was a stupid move because I love her but I am so fucking angry with her and then I'm so angry with myself for being angry with her, and then im more angry with her because I don't need this and then I'm angry at myself for being a selfish twat of a friend and its just a whole big circle of anger.
Can I in anyway make best friend get help? The cuts are very shallow, barely more than a cat scratch, I don't think she'll cut deep enough to do any real physical harm and like i said she is keeping them clean, which doesn't make me any less worried but I don't know what I can do?