Depression

[Ina999]

Hi All,

I am finding it really hard to put all my feelings in written but I acknowledge i cannot keep it in any longer.

I am 19 weeks pregnant. It wasnt planned, but both my partner and I were extatic and wanted the baby. Everything was going great until i started to feel very depressed over time. I started taking everything out on my partner without explaining why. Everything he did annoyed me and pushed me into arguing with him day in day out. I gave him no break. During this I am working on a very stressful and demanding job which didnt help my coping with the depressive thoughts. I started thinking of taking my life away, because I panicked that we will bring a baby into a stressful unhealthy life and this is pushed me even more. I never told my partner why i was acting this way, but was expecting him to always be there and support me. Last night we had another fight, he lost his patience and told me he cannot be with me anymore because i dont stop pushing him and this environment is bad for our unborn child. Since then i am in a complete state of panick and exaustion and all the thoughts going through my head scare me to bits.

Sorry to hear what you're going through

From what you've said, it sounds like you'd be best off speaking to your GP, you may both discuss and agree on medication or you may agree for you to try CBT to talk things through to start with. Feeling like you're depressed may also be something you want to discuss with your midwife who might be able to give you further support.

There are a lot of emotions when pregnant and you have to be honest with yourself and others if they get out of hand. Think about where this could really be stemming from - are you scared? Do you worry about not being good enough? These are OK quite common fears but if they are playing out into your life and causing problems with your partner and racing thoughts, it's not something that should be ignored.