In the last year - 18 months I began to suffer with anxiety & depression. I thought I had dealt with it with the help of a counsellor & more recently this year, Propanolol. This year has been particularly difficult for me, I left a job I fell out of love with, started a new one I was super excited for then due to my epilepsy was no longer able to fulfil that role so I had no option but to leave that job. I then for the first time in 6 years was unemployed for 4 weeks, attending interviews left right & centre with no such luck. I decided to go back into the job I fell out of love with but in a different area. Big mistake. 2 weeks in & I felt the anxiety & depression creeping in on me.
Last night it all came to a head & im suffering for it now. Tried to sleep at 10pm, DH watched tv with me to keep my mind off it & that usually helps me to sleep. But this time it didn't. I actually have not slept since Saturday night now. I quite literally was having on & off panic attacks, I was in floods of tears to DH & even having chatted for a few hours thought I felt better. DH fell asleep, I tried to sleep since it was then 2am & just began having another panic attack followed by crying. I've given up trying to sleep & plonked myself on the sofa. I haven't told my new employer about my anxiety, now it looks like I'll have to. I feel so scared by this & I don't know what to do.