Depressed single mum

[Beebeemum]

Feeling miserable. Want to be happy for my baby boy of 14 months. Exhausted. Bad sleeper. Fussy eater. Messy dirty house. Unorganised. Exhausted. Shitty psychiatrist. Irritating support worker. Hate councilling. No family or friends. Boring mum and baby groups. No energy. Etc etc. I'm really sad.

Sorry to hear you are feeling so low. When you have a child that age it can feel so unrelenting. It is very difficult to keep your house clean or stay organised when you have a demanding baby AND you're sleep deprived AND you have little support. Sleep deprivation on its own can make you feel depressed , let alone all the other factors.
Just maybe remind yourself that no matter how you feel, you are being a good mum to your baby. every time you respond to his cry or feed him or change his nappy he is receiving love from you and that love is setting a good foundation for the rest of his life. Don't worry about whether he's eating as well as he should, so many kids are fussy at that age, maybe just regularly offer him healthy stuff and if he doesn't eat it and just plays with it, at least he's been exposed to it and that helps them become more open to eating it at a later date. Maybe you could get some sleep advice on here. You are doing really well, it's the age I felt most low at because you've already had 11 months of sleep deprivation so it's really built up over that time and you almost feel at your worst, but it does start to get gradually easier as they get older. Does he nap twice a day? Sometimes cutting out one nap can help their night time sleep. I wish you had better support in your life and hope you do soon, but just remember being a mother is hard but all those little repetitive things you do for your baby mean the world to him, he is learning that he is loved and he belongs thanks to you.

How are you op? From another single parent

Thankyou for your kind words, my depression has lifted a bit. I saw the psych doctor which only saddened me due to talking about negative things, but I've generally been in a better mental state for the last week. Being a good parent on my own without support is very tiring mentaly and physically. Trying to read up on sleep advise and come up with a plan of action. Sorry for late reply