I'm feeling "not right"

[iwasagirlinavillage]

I'm sorry if this is jumbled. I'm feeling really odd. I have depression and I've been through a period of high stress following the breakdown of my marriage. On top of this both of my daughters have health problems. I am also being tested for various autoimmune diseases. I had an appointment with a Neurologist yesterday and I've been referred for an MRI.

I'm feeling really out of it. Very foggy. Quite detached. I can't focus or concentrate. My head feels like it's spinning. I don't know what's causing this. Or what to do about it. I can think straight. But I feel like my brain isn't working properly.

I don't know what's causing this feeling but more importantly I don't know what to do about it.

Sounds like I felt when I was getting derealisation. The only thing that seemed to help was reducing stress levels which I know isn't particularly helpful right now, sorry.

Second it being possibly a bad stress reaction. I had this earlier in the year. Actually got so bad that one night I could not recognise DP and my new home.

I had a very tight deadline to meet with studies and pressure at work. Also DS had started showing worrying MH symptoms. When the pressure and worries got less, the fog eased off completely. However, I am still more tired than usual. Some of my tests indicated possible autoimmune disease, but luckily I'm ok. I have some inkling of how you must feel. It won't be forever, but you should mention this to your doctor. I got given some sleeping pills and beta blockers, which helped a bit, as well as just trying very hard to not "spin out" and keep doing things to keep well (eating well, having little walks, watching TV I liked, and, bizarrely enough, writing poetry) instead of being completely sucked into it, IYSWIM. Try an take care of yourself and get the treatment and time off you need.

I also broke up with DH last year, so know how that feels. Even if I was the one who "called it off" in the end, after nearly 12 years. It's a massive change and makes you think about your identity and worry about your (now) unknown future....

I know that feeling. I get it when my anxiety is really bad. It can last for a few minutes or a few days. I try to 'ground' myself but looking around me and homing in on tiny details of what I can see. What can I smell? I find something I can hold in my hand and concentrate on what it feels like. Sometimes these things help to lessen that feeling.
The only thing that has really worked for me in the long term is training my brain through CBT and counseling to deal better with stress and making sure I try to control/limit the amount of stress in my life as much as possible (I know this is not always possible). I also find naming my emotion/ feeling helps. So if I feel 'not right' I try to identify what it is. Am I tired? Am I sad? Then I can try to deal with it.
I'm sorry you're going through this OP. For what it's worth, I've made a pretty good recovery that's taken about 2 years but I really do feel like a much stronger person for what I've been through and I live my life now much more happily than I ever did before. It was a time I'd never want to experience again but I've learned from it.
I hope you find the help you need