this may be a bit long, so in advance i apologise, I am a single mother of 3, ages 7,6 and 5, my ex husband left for someone else a week before i found out i was pregnant with my 3rd child. Ever since then he has just caused me hell. He's very violent and demanding, and everything has to be done his way. He has never really paid any maintenance, an odd few pounds here and there, and he has never been in the childrens lives regually, he will see them maybe once in two months, and have them over at his maybe 5 times in the year for one night at each time. Every day seemed like a struggle and still does sometimes, i have a good family, but dont always want to bombard them with my problems. 9 months ago i met a lovely guy, whom i have spent a lot of time with, he is good with the kids, and makes me feel really good, today my ex husband paid my boyfriend a visit and told him that its ok to be with me but to stay away from his children, well i'm with the children 24/7 apart from when i'm working so it is going to be impossible to see each other. my boyfriend doesn't want to cause any problems with the ex so is abiding by his rules. I feel totally lost and feel like everything is always going wrong as soon as something good happens. i dont have any control in my life as my ex still controls everything. i dont know what to do, i just want to run away from everything but know that i cant, i've had enough and just dont know wht to do anymore, i try so hard but nothing ever works out for me, i just needed to get all this off my chest, i dont know what anyone can say, i just feel so upset and cant stop crying