So I would be grateful for any advice/experiences on this
I'm currently expressing milk for my little girl as we haven't been able to breastfeed and she is allergic to every formula we have tried including Neocate. She is 13 weeks, and I recently hired a hospital grade pump since my previous breast pump broke. Recently something really scary has been happening to me:
Every time I expressed, my boobs have started throbbing, the pump hasn't been draining them and I've been left feeling really strange, like the room is rocking from side to side, and and I have felt really strong feelings of Magness and foreboding. My supply is also going down, and I've started to get what looks like the beginnings of mastitis. I'm not really concerned with finding an answer to the physical side of things on this board, but it's more a feeling I've been having, such tearful horrible feelings, such fear and negativity, such utter darkness and madness in my brain. I can't control any of this, and it was so scary this morning, I just felt like I was inhabiting a nightmare, and had completely lost touch with reality. I guess my question is, is this the beginning of psychosis or is this just anxiety gone out of control? Perhaps some of you guys have experienced something like this, or have experienced psychosis and could tell me what it feels like. I've never felt mad before, and I've had plenty of depressive episodes, nothing like what I've been feeling recently. I want to be a good mum to my kids, but this expressing regime plus the worry about my daughters formular allergy, and now all the worry about my sanity is driving me bananas.