I've been seeing my therapist for a couple of months ago. It's primarily to deal with a trauma from a few years ago which has manifested itself now in anxiety, a degree of depersonalisation/derealisation, self harm and disordered eating (cycles of starvation and binging, although no purging).
Today he said that we had to start tackling some of these things but in order to do that, he wants to keep a log over the next week of everything that I eat and drink, how I feel at the time and any urges to self harm etc. He's told me to keep eating in exactly the same way that I have but I'm really struggling with the idea of writing it all down and then sharing it with someone. Has anyone else done this and can reassure me that it's not going to be as horrendous and shameful as I expect?
I have all sorts of issues about eating and, in particular, eating in front of other people and I've been sat at work all morning paralysed by the thought of what, if anything, I should eat for lunch or whether I can just not eat for the next week. I will, of course, discuss this with him next week but at the moment the whole thing is making me feel very anxious.