Need a bit of help

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I just hurt myself for the first time in years. Think I need a hand hold right now nothing serious just superficial marks. I'm going to talk to my GP, feeling like I've let my baby down.

Ok, I'm off to bed very soon, cos I am old and knackered...but, can you pause it for now, maybe make yourself a hot drink?

Do you want to talk to us instead if that helps? How old is the baby? I'm sure you haven't let them down - although sometimes being a mum is very overwhelming x

Already having alcohol, I'm going to bed soon. I just don't know how I got here. I don't know what I'm unhappy about. I just don't feel like I'm worth anything. I feel daft posting. Haven't felt like this in a long time, I'm just a mess. A really big mess, I'm becoming exactly what I don't have time for.

My baby is nearly 8 months old, I feel disconnected from my partner. My baby is more difficult at the moment I know it's because of teething, I love her to bits. I'm going back to work soon, I think it's stressing me out without realising but I'm looking forward to the 'break' and being my own person. I just don't know how I got here.

Is it worth asking the GP about counselling, maybe get to the bottom of why you're feeling like this? Sounds like life is tough right now

I think I resent him even though I know he works so hard.

Don't feel daft. Isn't this what Mumsnet is for... support from random people you don't know?! Hope you are ok for tonight and can get some rest. Sure there will be other people along later with better suggestions so maybe check back in tomorrow?

That all sounds quite normal to me... eight months is hard as you're over the real baby stage and they need more entertainment but it's tough finding a balance with your partner while your on mat leave and feeling guilty about going back to work or having some of the old you back...

No more alcohol-it makes it worse-speaking from experience-not judgement.
Stop at superficial marks, you have realised and addressed it straight away-that is amazing, try sleep soon if you can-if not put a film on to immerse yourself in if you can concentrate, if not, choose one song at a time to concentrate on for a few mins each time-much easier if your head's all over.
GP in the morning, or if you feel worse tonight, a call to your crisis team. You are letting no one down addressing things xx

i don't have anything worth of being this upset about. I just can't understand my own emotions or anyone else's. Definitely something wrong with me. Thanks for the replys, I just got some meds for anxiety but they make me feel sick so I can't take them. I should really talk about these things while sober but I don't have any confidence. I feel like I'm horrible to my partner and I just get really angry for no reason. I don't know what to say.

Writing things down might help, or if you can get RL support talking therapy. There isn't always a reason x

I feel like I'd have no patience for post like this so thank you, all this awfull rambling. Just can't believe how much I have moved backwards recently.

Noticing you are going backwards is the first step to moving forwards, it sounds cliche but it's true. Keep talking as much as you need

Maybe because things are stressful right now. Going back to work, with mixed feelings, feeling resentment towards your partner, presumably doing more than your 'share' of childcare if he is working. Having a baby is a tremendous shock emotionally and physically. It's a lot to cope with. People have different ways of handling it.

Thanks, I had such a hard time while having my baby. I dont go out, I can't keep my house tidy and I get In a flap so easily. I feel like I can't open up to my partner, but I don't know exactly why. I've been feeling anxious that I might have autism but I don't know if I'm just being silly.

Crap I feel dizzy, how do I make that stop

Lay down and concentrate on slow breaths. If there is a rectangle in the room look at it and breathe in for the short parts and out for the longer parts-if you can't find a rectangle try imagine one

Why did I do tins I feel really ill

Hope you are doing ok. Sounds like going back to the GP might be a good start- are you able to make an appointment this morning?

How are you doing this morning OP?

Just feeling a bit ashamed of myself tbh. Going to the docs next week

You have nothing to be ashamed of. Glad you have got an appointment. Look after yourself!

Hang in there over the weekend. Is there anything specific you feel ashamed of?