It feels like to me when you have this neighbour constantly coming to your house borrowing a pint of milk or cup of sugar all the time so you start to dread the door or the phone go.
That's how I feel services are seeing me, that they are fed up with me, that they need/want me to shut up.
I've been honest with them, told them how I feel, how I don't want to live. The dr thinks I should go into hospital when my youngest goes live with his dad in the summer but I don't want to because I'm scared of what that means.
I'm so panicky over everything, I can't leave the house if no one is in because we have a cat and he has no voice and if there is a fire then no one will know he's there and he will die
Most foods I eat hurt my tummy and side so I try to avoid them but lately I have been bingeing really bad on it which in turn leads to me being in a lot of pain, it's like I need to punish myself because I'm so worthless or before somebody else does 😭
I just want my head to be quiet it's too noisy and too scarey.